DELAYED

Hello. Okay, okay. I know. I'm sorry. It's been, what, sixteen days since my last post? Well, last night I was waiting in the airport, cause my flight was delayed, and I was going to catch you up then, but then we had to board and the computer had to go off. So, yeah. That didn't exactly work out.

Anyway, I apologize. I have been so incredibly busy lately. Filming a lot the past couple weeks, catching up with my best friends, church, film class, school...

Well, I'm in New Mexico right now. I shot my last scene today (I know, so sad. We'll get to that later).

I started school. Ahh. Seriously, it is CRAZY. But, I love it. I have eight classes, but it's all block scheduling. So, it's not so bad. But I have a ton of projects I have to do that make up for all the school I missed last week. Let me tell you, high school is a ton of work. :P So far, my friends are Cole, Cali, Samantha Dawn (ha! i win!), Arcana, Alicia, Zeke, Ki, Kelsey, Shelby, and Jasmine. Not a bad bunch of friends. (;

It was kind of awkward my first day. I mean, I've really never been the "new girl." And even though I was only a week late, everyone seemed to have already made their friends for life, or they were returning students with the same group, or whatever. But as soon as Cole walked into my zero hour geometry class and announced, "this is a LOT of stuff to lug around everywhere," I knew we were going to be friends. Yep, that simple. And we had dance together that day, where we started talking... And thus our friendship began. And it's basically through him that I even have friends at this place. (: It's awesome though. Everyone's crazy (and I honestly do mean that in SUCH a good way!), like me! Fabulous.

Well, I found out on Wednesday morning that I was cast in a short film entitled "Ty Butterfly." It's for a competition (I think) for films about student problems, and this one's about bullying. Anyway, we're shooting it on Sunday afternoon. So, I get home tomorrow afternoon and then film all day Sunday. :D Sounds good to me!

Today. Hmm... I'm not quite sure what I'm going to say about today. I probably went through every single emotion possible to the human heart/brain/body today. Anger, fear, hope, love, disappointment, excitement, joy, grief, confusion, pride, gratefulness...

Seriously. I mean, especially love. I knew I loved this. I did. But I didn't know how much until I was told that I was wrapped and Karen (the AD) shouted to the whole cast and crew that I was wrapped and everyone cheered for me. I started BAWLING. I was crying my HEART out. It was so bittersweet. Because even though I know it's "the end," it really isn't. Because I fell in love today. Well, over the whole course of this thing I've been falling in love, but it was really today that I realized how much I've fallen in love. When I was in my trailer, changing, crying, I said to my mom, "I feel like I just got dumped." Really, it's like a break up, almost. Cause I'm so in love with it and I have to leave. Gahh.

It was an awesome day, though. I had a ton of fun with everyone on my last day! The scene we shot was fun (occasionally, when the camera was actually on me) and I got to hang out with everyone one last time. I'm gonna miss you guys!


I'm trying to think of a good song-of-the-day. I honestly can't think of anything that sums up how I feel. It'd be something that talks about feeling a whole bunch of emotions and something being over, but it not being the end. You know, like, technically this is the end but really, for me, it's just the beginning. And the line would have to say, "I'm just getting started."

Know of any songs that wrap all that into one three-to-five minute musical poem? Or am I gonna have to write one?