i know better

hello, there. (:



so, i suppose i have a lot to say, but i think i can keep it short.

1) i was cast in an indie feature film, "under the bridge," as susie. (:
2) lemonade mouth comes out on april 15 on the disney channel!
3) i played two original songs tonight ("write it on my arm" and "i know better (simple song)") at an open mic night at tempe center for the arts.
4) i have auditions at school for singers' showcase on friday and want to play an original song. (that said, please let me know which of my original songs you think i should play!)
5) this is a shoutout to maureen, who's the coolest person ever! you rock, girl, and i'm so happy to make you happy! :D :D thanks for all the kind words and continuous following. (:


kind of a crazy week.
that's all my news.

i would just like to say this to someone (and if you're reading, you'll obviously know this is about you, but if not, then everyone else can hear what i have to say to you):

i wanted it to work. i really did. still do, actually. i've wanted it for quite some time now. you ask why i keep changing my mind. i never did. i've always wanted this. however, to humor you, i kept changing my mind because i know it isn't right. it wouldn't be a good relationship. and i kept coming up with excuses for ignoring the thing nagging at the back of my brain, "THIS WON'T WORK!", because i wanted it to anyway. and i'm sorry if i hurt you. you mean a lot to me and i hope you won't lose hope. although it's selfish for me to tell you to just wait around as i constantly change my mind, i sort of want to ask you to do that. but i know you won't. you didn't even fight for me. that hurt. but i get it, you want someone who's gonna be able to live in the moment with/for you and have a steady decision about you. so i'm gonna let you go. i'll let you find her, because it's not me. and i can't keep holding on to you when there's nothing there.