Unfair

I guess everyone goes through that really hard decision, right? Where there's something in your life that you know you really need to get rid of, though you don't want to. Whether it be an addiction, an item, or a person, we all have to face it at some point.

Well, I'm facing it right now.

And not for the first time.

Let me just say, I hate it.

It's like that moment of realization that something isn't really the way you thought it was, or the way it used to be, maybe. And when you can't really place your finger on it, but you know something's off... Wrong, even. And you spend a long time not only trying to figure out what's "wrong," but trying to make it "right." There isn't even a hardest part. The whole thing is the hardest part. You've got the realization, the struggle, and the end. The end is when you finally muster up enough courage to really get rid of whatever it is that needs to be... Gotten rid of. And I know that sounds harsh and all, but that's how it works. And that's what we've got to do.

That's what I've got to do.

"Unfair," by Kate Voegele, is my song of the day.

"I've got this dead-ended street to keep searching for a tunnel underneath the bitter truth, or a bridge, invisible, I won't fall through."

I'm "searching for a tunnel underneath the bitter truth." I'm looking for that loop-hole. Trying to discover something that will make it clear that I really don't have to do it. That i really don't have to face the truth. The truth that this isn't right. And the truth that I don't need you.