Coming Soon

Hello!

Well, today was, eh, not so fantastic. The whole "thing I have to do but don't want to" that I talked about in my last post... I did it today.

And it was hard.

But I still did it. I know it was what I needed to do for me right now. I had to end a relationship that I never thought I'd have to end. I didn't ever want to. But I know what I need to be focusing on, and because of that it wasn't really fair for him or for me to continue on with the relationship.

I don't have much to say other than that I have no idea how I feel right now. I mean, I think it was the right thing to do, but I'm not sure whether or not I'm happy or sad about it. Sure, I cried, but I don't know how I feel. I do know, though, that the knoweledge of how I feel and that feeling of letting go is coming soon.

That's why my song of the day is one of my own. "Coming Soon."

"Don't forget about me. Don't lose hold of what we had. I'm torn between the truth and the past. I think I'll always love you, I know I'll always love you. But the scilence screams the truth that I don't need you."

I'm basically saying that even though it's over, I don't want him (or me) to forget about it. Because it was wonderful... But, "I'm torn between the truth in the past," meaning I'm being torn in two different directions - letting him go or holding on to him - based on the truth (what we've become) and the past (what we used to be, what I wish we still were). And I think that I'll always hold him close to my heart. And as much as I don't want to admit it, I realize that I really don't need him.